Original Not Bad - SPN (Dean, OC)

[starpollen]

I honestly thought I had posted this when I wrote it.  But I can’t find it lol.  Maybe I didn’t?  If I did, apologies for the repost.  I was going through my hard drive and stumbled across it.  Enjoy! 

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Dean and Sam stop by a bar on a Friday night, looking for some – ahem – distractions. Not realizing exactly what five shots of whiskey, a lingering cold, and some feminine TLC will do to Dean's emotions. Set after dad's gone and before Hell. 

Not Bad

It wasn't bad, all things considered.

Noisy bar, Friday night. It's packed, everybody just passing through. Two guys. Brothers. Towering giant with a baby face, and his green-eyed big brother who hits on every nearby thing with a skirt. His nose is chapped, a bar napkin never far from his hand as he dabs and coughs lightly. "Getting over a cold," he explains to a curvy blonde who - unfortunately for him - has her eye on a tattooed guy playing pool. A few seconds later he catches a sneeze in the paper, an airy, "h'CHsss!" that flushes his cheeks.

"Another whiskey?" the bartender asks, flipping her brown hair over her shoulder.

"Always," he replies with a wicked wink.

How she ends up getting picked is anyone's guess. God knows she isn’t the best looking piece of tail he could have nailed. But she is willing. Easy. And probably just the first to press close to his ear as his hand cupped her ass and shout over the music, "You wanna take this someplace else?"

He flicks a glance to his brother who had his tongue down Nora's throat. Good. Nora'd just been dumped - again - and could use a shot to her ego. She'd treat the kid right. Hopefully he'd return the favor.

If Green Eyes hadn't had that last shot, he'd probably have left right after it was over. But he'd whipped his dark head back one last time, slamming the empty glass - his fifth - on the counter before staggering to his feet, letting her arm around his waist lead him out the back door and down a couple of blocks to her place.

Key in the lock, his mouth on the back of her neck, his hands on her breasts, then fumbling in the dark, weaving their way to her bedroom. He whips his head to the side once for a sneeze, "wh'PSCH!  Dammit. Sorry." Then gasping, groping, sweat. Her room is spinning, his body warm and hard, hers soft and pliant, and - shit, nobody's done THAT in a while and OH GOD he was damned good at it - and then he's on top of her.

Something shifts, changes, his hands clenching spastically into her sides as his mouth moves just a little too hungrily - a little too desperate. Gone is the cocky, flirtatious cad from the bar. Instead, a man who’s holding on so hard and so tight, like he's scrabbling to regain something that's slippery and elusive, disappearing right through his fingers.

Then it's all over and his weight comes down to settle against her with a shuddering sigh. This is the part where she expects maybe a caress and a "well, it's late and I should get going" or maybe for him to wait for her to fall asleep before sneaking out.

The last thing she expects is for one arm to slowly snake around her waist, for his face to disappear into the hollow of her neck.

Maybe it’s his hesitation, the way he moves - a little clumsy, uncertain - but she's somehow convinced this is far from his usual M.O.

At first she blames it on that fifth shot, on a body too sated with whiskey and sex to move. She's had one or two guys like that before, who couldn't ever truly sleep until they'd exhausted themselves with booze and sex. But the air shifts, sobriety blanketing her and bringing all her awareness to his body as she holds her breath, waiting.

It's coming. Something.

The first shudder shakes them both, a quick head-to-toe quake that's gone almost before she registers it happened. The arm around her waist stiffens, and he draws a long and nakedly deliberate breath. He's fighting it. Something. And it doesn't escape her that she's had one too many beers to be this aware of it. She digs her front teeth into her lower lip, trying to decide whether to move - to put an arm around him in return - or just pretend to sleep until he drifts off.

Instinct.

Hers has always been really good, which is how she makes such good money tending bar. She can tell when someone's going to want another drink, when they're ready to switch to something harder, when they need a friendly ear or when they just want to be left alone.

Right now all her bells are going off, but she's playing it cool. Letting him think she's passed out. The second shiver gives her the excuse to let out what she hopes is a sleepy, contented sigh and slip one arm under his neck. Still loose enough that he can slip away if that's his intention.

After a few more minutes of stillness, of willing her body to go completely lax as if in sleep, she feels him heave the tightest, most broken breath she's ever heard, slowly molding his body as close to hers as he can get. The sudden cold wetness on her neck is a shock, and she almost gives herself away, wanting to pull back and see his face. But he's so utterly silent, so knotted and still that she knows somehow that if she does that he'll bolt.

Instinct.

He needs this. Needs more than he knows how to ask for, needs so deeply and so desperately that it's welled up and seeping out his eyes.

A half-choked gasp for air, quickly stifled. She does another sleepy-girly-sigh-and-shift, managing to slip a leg between his, other arm going clumsily around his shoulders so they're both on their sides and his face is buried in her chest. Holding him. Without holding him.

This, he can accept.

She doesn't sleep. Keeps her breathing even and deep, even manages a slight rasp to add that touch of believability. Her breastbone is wet and cold from his eyes, her collarbone sweaty where his forehead presses hard. She ignores each hitch of breath, only once reaching - fumbling - for the covers when he can't suppress the third tight, wracking, shudder-quiver-tremble-shiver.

It would have been easier if he'd just let go, just let himself fucking sob like his body seems to need to do so badly. But instead of giving in to a hard and fast crying jag that would have been over and done with in probably twenty minutes, he chuffs and chokes and trembles for over an hour. The great thing about the new position is she can open her eyes once in a while to check the clock, her chin resting in his sweaty hair.

He finally sinks into a reluctant sleep about 4 a.m., though her chest stays wet for another 10 minutes, a slow seep. His arm around her waist goes slack, his two-hitch sigh and heavy shift signaling his body's decision to shut down for the night. Game over. Done.

It wouldn't be the first time she's seen a crying drunk: something about the combination of alcohol's weakening of inhibitions with the violent physical release of sex opening the flood gates.

This is the first time, though, she ever believed it went deeper than that.

Nora's apartment is next door, and through the walls she hears a couple of thuds and a sleepy giggle. Seems little brother's got good recovery.

Big brother gives a barely-audible whimper, which causes her arm to tighten in a light squeeze. It helps, even if the rhythmic rumble from next door picks up the pace and makes her roll her eyes. Forget about sleeping.

Her coffee pot kicks on about 7:30, just as the sun is spreading red fingers over the horizon. She eases her arms away, sure that he won't be happy to wake up like that. He doesn’t move.

Slipping out of bed, she goes out to check the mail.  After sorting the junk, she pours 2 generous cups, not surprised to hear the toilet flush as she carries them back to her room. He comes out with bloodshot, bleary eyes, definitely hung over, wordlessly accepting the proffered cup and draining it in three long gulps.

"Have a shower," is all she says, switching his empty cup for her full one, leaving him looking down at it with a couple confused blinks as she goes back to the kitchen. Another sneeze echoes after her, "hk'gCHu!"

Ten minutes later he's more alert, stopping in the doorway as he buttons up his jeans, shirt hanging over one shoulder, bare chest damp. She makes no effort to hide how her gaze lingers on the low-slung jeans, the grooves that cut into his skin near his lean hips. Damp hair hanging in his gorgeous green eyes.

He takes her on the kitchen floor. Longer this time. Slower. Sweeter. Little brother might have good recovery but big brother has stamina.

She walks him to the door, keeping it light, her lazy, sated grin and flippant "thanks" giving him an easy out.

But he stops, one foot on the porch the other on her threshold, and before she knows it his hands cup her face and he kisses her. Languid. Sensual. Emotional.

The best thank-you she's ever had.

The screen door slams and she heads off to take her own shower, not really wanting to lose the scent of him that clings to her skin but knowing she needs to get a start on her day.

And there it is. Propped against her toothbrush holder next to the sink. A small scrap of paper.

Dean. 907-3235

She texts him her number, not surprised when she receives no reply. She showers and gets ready to head out. Day job. Lovely.

Nora is gushing, going into more detail than she really needed, ending with a surreptitious, "So, how was yours?"

"Not bad." She smiles to herself. "Not bad."

Fin.

Edited March 24, 2018 by starpollen

[Elyze]

I'm sorry to say this because I certainly don't want you to hesitate to post anything you happen to find on your hard drive, but I've read this before which means you must have already posted it. However, now that it's a fresh thread I can also comment and say that I enjoyed the read. It's a different view of Dean that isn't often written

[Anilkex]

Yes - It took me a bit, but I remember this fic. It's really really good. The point of view is fantastic, and more importantly, realistic. She gets him, but isn't going full tilt cuddling or anything. When she muses early on why he chose her, that is why he chose her. All her actions and reactions gave him what he needed, and it was nice to see Dean get something he needed in a very Dean way.

And...it was also awesome to know Sam was banging away next door. 

 

[jensdw]

Ooh, I loved this. I’ve always been a fan of oc’s caring for Dean and this was perfect. I’m glad you posted this because I haven’t seen it before and it would’ve been a shame to miss this. Thanks for sharing.

[Seeker]

I definitely remember reading this, as I went through all 145 (at the time) pages of the fanfics, picking stories from familiar fandoms for me. However, I was trying to be good and not pop up older posts by commenting so now I get to say I loved this story. It was sweet and sad and I thought about it long after reading. When I decided to rewatching and catch up on SPN and was going through this season, I thought back to this fic and it fits very nicely. Now I'm in season four and I just want to rant and rant and my thoughts watching it now are completely different from my thoughts of when I used to watch. 

sorry. Tangent. Good story 

[rockbell]

I just started watching Supernatural and am now in the middle of season two and I love love LOVE this!! Thank you so much for sharing!!!

[telltale]

I've definitely read and loved this before, and read and loved it again right now.  So lovely.